Just to kill time

Its currently 3.18 in the morning. I do not feel sleepy at all.

I'm skipping school again tomorrow. Waahaa, don't blame me. School is boring okay :)

fifteen is a number

hello ernest oh jian shen (:

Happy fifteenth birthday dude. See your picture! Thats the only one i can find. Sorry sorry, but don't blame me, blame yourself for not camwhoring :P Hah, someone's getting old:) anyway, i hope you had fun on your birthday! Don't forget to smile! you don't want to get old with super alot of wrinkles on your face, don't you? :D

But i lived to tell this story

hello hello hello;D i skipped school today. why why why? because school is boring. so therefore, i skipped school. I`m currently at home berchating chating with the boyfriend. She skipped school too. i woke up at 10 today. Early early i know. I had the weirdest yet saddest dream ever last night. Can cry okay:X So, this is what happened. I went to australia with the family and also beatrice's family. When we reached there, me and beatrice seperated from the family. we went jalan jalan alone. We didn't know where we exactly were but we decided to continue walking. Then, we walked into this dark and quiet alley, and we saw 2 guys standing there like a stick man. They were not moving. God knows why lah. So we continued walking anyway. Then suddenly beatrice shouted " rapist! " So we ran back out of the alley but beatrice was too slow and the so called rapist caught her. I, as usual sangat huru hara i didnt know what to do. so i picked up a stone and threw it at his head X: omg. stupid stupid stupid. Then then, the dude let her go and we continued running. Suddenly, i reached back to my house and i dont know where was beatrice. I went to take a shower. Before going into the bathroom, i took 2 knives along with me because it didn't feel safe and i could feel there was someone/something in my house. While going into the bathroom my dog kept barking at something. At that point i knew something was up. I closed the bathroom door and left a little space open so that i could see if there was anything going on. And yess, my instincts were right. I peeped at the small hole and i saw a man standing in the other bathroom. At first i really didn't know what to do. Then i thought i should just do something before he does. And so, i took the two knives and came out of the toilet and stabbed him with it a number of times. He didn't die ); Instead, he stabbed me with his knife and Blood started flowing out of my body. Just then, my parents came back. I went to my mum and tried talking to her. But she couldn't see me. Just then, i knew i was dead. Then i started to attract attention by throwing stuff on the floor. They finally she found out it was me. I wrote about the incident on a piece of paper. When my mum read it, she cried. Then, I hugged my mum and said my last goodbye's .


then, i woke up and realised it was just a dream.
but a really sad dream. Well, atleast to me.
I even teared while typing this. :X

ahhh, im going out for lunch now.
tata.

She's all grown up

Hello caryn toh shu hui :)

Someone's getting pretty old eih? Very soon you'll be able to drive and i'll be the first person you'll take out shopping, wouldn't you(: ? Wahaha. Lets not talk about Driving as its 3 years from now. you slowly wait la okay:)

Okay okay, so where do i start?

Firstly, i would like to say that you're awesome. You've taught me so so much in less than 3 years and never once have you failed to tolerate my nonsense. I've been through thick and thin with you. And im sure you know what i mean *wink*

Secondly, I'm really sorry i couldn't make it to your surprise birthday dinner thing. I really was looking forward to it. Two years in a row /; I banyak sorry:X And yess, i promise you i'll make it up to you during holiday okays. anywhere and anything you want to do :)

& lastly, dont forget to SMILEEE! :D

much love,♥

because exams are over.

SAY WHAT..?

say it like you mean it(:

I smell freedom. Do you?

Exams exams exams.
3 more days of agony and exams are over:D
I cant wait i cant wait i cant wait.
Shopping anyone ;D ?

*

Here you go, beatrice. happy?
2 pictures, better than nothing :P

Amd this what happens when you rub your eyes too much.
Ignore the eye bags though:)


Okayokay, Im off:)
goodbye<3

Because im takin' back my love.

Hello:D
Sorry for the lack of updates. As you can see my blog is very dead so i decided to update it a little. And No, i have not neglected my blog. So, do visit my blog okay:D

Exams are in 2 days.
Are you ready?
No?
me neither(:

may 9th(:

Happy birthday,asyraff(:
The one who took me to klcc on a school day.
see what you got me into.
tsktsk.

&& not forgetting my beloved mommy who turned ( fill in the blank ) on the 9th of may as well. I know you'll never read my blog, but i want you to know i love you and you're the best(:

So i was here.
i typed.
i updated.
im satisfied:)

10 days is all i've got.

HELLO:)
Exams are around the corner. And im so busted because i have 10 days to study 2 and the half years of work. 10 days is not enough of course, and therefore, im gonna sacrifice my online time to study. So good luck to me in doing that.

& Last but not least, good luck to all of you for mid term:D

PICTURESSS(:

lalalalalalala, loves♥

i broke a window and cut my hand.

But im fine. so no worries(:

because my life sucks without you.

Days and even months have passed by.
But you're still in my mind.
Why is it so hard to forget you?
Friends told me to hang on.
While some told me to move on.
I'm stuck in between and dont know what to do.
I miss having you by my side.

You were the one who took care of me.
The one who called me at 1 in the morning just to tell me you love me.
The one who forced me to sleep eventhough i wasn't tired.
The one who got me credit when i ran out of it.
The one who told me silly jokes just to make me laugh.
The one who greeted me good morning everday /;

I'm sorry that i ignored you.
I'm sorry i left you heart broken.
I'm sorry i pushed you away.
I'm sorry for lying to you.
I'm sorry i didn't listen to you.
I'm sorry things didn't work out.

sivik project.

I can't bare the pain any longer.

Why is it so hard to let you go?
I've tried so many ways to forget you but the memories we had together is still engraved in my heart. I thought it would all just go away but i was wrong.
It hasn't been easy. Your images are bothering me every second.
I keep thinking you're beside me everytime, but when i turn to look, you're not there and dissapointment followed by tears starts to fill my eyes.
I somehow think it's impossible to forget.


So i asked the girlfriend for lalalala's and she lalalala-ed;

Here's what I know about letting go. When you commit to letting go of something, what you are actually doing is making space for something new to enter.

The risk is that you may get hurt again or make the same mistakes. However, if you don't take the risk you'll never know what's possible and you'll never be fully alive. Anyone who has successful relationships or careers takes risks. It's part of living full out.

My hunch here is that the fear of beginning again is stronger than the pain of releasing the memories. The truth is that the past is past, you cannot change it. What you can change however, is how you react and live in the present moment.

So the choice is yours -either you get on with your life, use the past to learn from and grow from and have fun or you keep carrying the same heavy burden which has kept you stuck for years and prevents you from moving forward.


-I think it's true. Even if i really let you go, i'll never let our memories fade.

When you turn fifteen.

Im 4 days late, so what? :)
And no, i didn't forget okay.
I never will.


15th april 1994(;
Who was born on that date?

Nicole Denise Hii Sze Wea(;

Babe, i've gone through so much with you. Ups and downs, highs and lows. We went through all of that together,and until this very moment i never forget the memories we shared together. You were the one who stood beside me through it all, the one who cheered me up when i was in pain and also in tears, the one who made me laugh so hard that i couldn't stop, the one who taught me things i never thought i'd do. All im saying is, thank you so much for your love and care. Without you i don't know where would i be right now. It has been the awesomest 5 years with you :)

happy fifteenth birthday,love.

& they say, many people walk in and out of our life, but only true friends will leave footprints on your heart(;